"We need to take this slowly, all right? I don't think I can handle watching the two of you... go full out with each other just yet, but yes, Asher, I have been reconsidering."
She looks down at her hands folded in her lap.
"I know I'm definitely not ready to say the two of you can be together in bed, just the two of you, but I think some of what I asked of you in the beginning was me just being me. Afraid of what it would mean if I said yes. Afraid of being deemed meaningless once you both had each other. Afraid of liking it. Afraid of hating it. Just... afraid."
It takes quite a lot for her to admit that so plainly, but she does it because they deserve it. They can hardly have any sort of relationship together if she keeps running from them -- and herself.
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Date: 2009-10-01 04:14 pm (UTC)"We need to take this slowly, all right? I don't think I can handle watching the two of you... go full out with each other just yet, but yes, Asher, I have been reconsidering."
She looks down at her hands folded in her lap.
"I know I'm definitely not ready to say the two of you can be together in bed, just the two of you, but I think some of what I asked of you in the beginning was me just being me. Afraid of what it would mean if I said yes. Afraid of being deemed meaningless once you both had each other. Afraid of liking it. Afraid of hating it. Just... afraid."
It takes quite a lot for her to admit that so plainly, but she does it because they deserve it. They can hardly have any sort of relationship together if she keeps running from them -- and herself.